Little Horsemen Doing the Math

19 Jan
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Little Horsemen at Gut Ising, Germany

It all started when I took them with me when I went to the stable to ride. They were 4 and 7 at the time. I thought it would be nice if they would just play while I rode my cares away. They thought it would be nice to be able to ride with me. I was stunned and kind of wondered what I should tell their parents. Once they convinced me that they wanted to learn so that they could ride with me, I let them give it a try. My trainer was someone I trusted with myself, so I trusted him with them too.

They were dressed in jeans and sneakers which is not the most comfortable way to ride on an English saddle. I watched them and they weren’t scared of being on a big horse. They followed the instructions of the trainer. When they finished their lessons I told them that if they were still serious after a few lessons that I would buy them riding pants.

They continued to take lessons and I kept my word, so one afternoon we headed for the tack store. On the way over the younger one who was 3 years old at the time, asked me if he could get a “super liquidator”. Knowing that he was talking about a big plastic toy that could be filled with water that would then, aimed or not,  soak everything in it’s path when fired, I wasn’t thrilled at the idea. I asked him why he thought he needed it and he replied, “I think it’s fun.” I had a different idea as one was used once to soak the living room (by accident through an open window). I didn’t want to say what I really thought so I told him we would talk about it later.

When we got to the store they tried on riding pants and then asked me how they looked. They looked so cute that I almost melted. Then the older one asked me if they could try on some riding boots as well.  I told them to check to see if there was anything that would fit them. Thinking about what I had paid for mine I was hoping that they wouldn’t find their size. They returned with boots on. For good luck someone had the good sense to stock the children’s sizes in rubber and not leather. The boots were about $40. That was a relief.

When I saw them all geared up with pants and boots I understood what parents go through when it comes to yes and no. They asked if they could have the boots too. That was when I knew I had to come to my senses. It would have been easy to say yes. I asked how much they were asking me to spend and the oldest, who at the age of 7 could do the math in his head, provided me with a correct figure . I told them I hadn’t planned to spend that much. The oldest one immediately came back with an offer to split the cost of the boots. I asked if he understood what his share would be and he told me. I then asked if they were willing to honor the deal and pay me back without hounding as I was going to have to front the whole thing. The answer was yes, although a bit reluctant from the little one.

After a moment the 4 year old told me that he would rather have a “super liquidator”. Taking a risk, I told him that in fact it would cost less for me if he made that choice and that he could have one or the other but not both. He hesitated for which his brother poked him and said, “don’t be stupid, she’s making you a good deal and besides if you get a stupid toy it will just break anyway.” I was relieved to have gotten this spontaneous support. I could see the younger one was torn but he agreed.

I told them that I expected the loan to be paid without me having to hound for it. They assured me that it would not be a problem. When we got home we made a work plan so that they could earn money. They agreed to perform certain chores around the house and then they worked enough to pay me back in 4 days. They did not complain or slough off. I didn’t have to mention anything, ever. I was amazed.

Once the debt was paid, they continued to do chores and earn money which they each kept in designated containers. They also took care of their boots by keeping them clean and put away with no adult input.

After a while the boots got a little small so they told me they needed to get some new ones. They didn’t ask for money they just asked for a ride to the store so that they could make their purchase. They used the money they had saved. I asked if they wanted to split the cost but they said no, thank you. They were very proud and happy to make the purchase themselves.

When I asked the little one if he still wanted a “super liquidator” he told me that at the time he thought he did, but he realized that it was just a toy and that if he had gotten it, it would have been broken long ago. He was happy that he still had his boots, even if they were too small. He was very proud of the new ones that he paid for himself. He was 5 years old.

Niki Aug 2002

Governor Bullock’s Spigot

13 Oct

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A man and his spigot 

I recently read an article in the local newspaper titled Pre-School Expansion Would Cost $37 Million (http://eeditions.shoom.com/doc/daily-inter-lake/22sept14dil/2014092201/#4). From the title to the first sentence there was a difference in wording from “would cost” to “will cost”. That is a very swift move from hypothetical to fact. I attended the meeting of the Board of Education at the end of July, and when asked, they had no idea how much the expansion would cost, as it is a work in progress. Now it is being hyped as a new detail.  A calculation of $37 million is not something that pops randomly out of thin air.

Governor Bullock, once again in his assumed role as lobbyist, is turning this pre-school funding initiative into a policy initiative. I might be wrong, but I thought it was up to the legislature to create, discuss and vote on policy.

There is talk about research that shows the benefits to children and society, but where is it? If this new standard hasn’t been implemented than how can it be tested and proven to work?  Ever heard of availability cascade? “An availability cascade is a self-reinforcing process of collective belief formation by which an expressed perception triggers a chain reaction that gives the perception of increasing plausibility through its rising availability in public discourse.“  In other words, if we say it is so often enough then you will believe us.

Governor Bullock, it states, has created a ‘grant pipeline” for the purpose of efficiently sending money to school districts who are interested in expanding their pre-school programs.  How many government sponsored public schools do you think will turn down the money oozing out of this so called pipeline?

Officials say that taxes won’t increase nor will programs be cut as there is $1.8 billion in the general fund to keep all the districts flush.  I am baffled at how we can close businesses like logging, mining and resource development and still have so much money. That little tidbit made me think of the CAFR. What is the CAFR you ask? The Comprehensive Annual Financial Report and this is an excellent explanation http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pRPBKJQnyU&feature=youtu.be

But I digress.  It seems that the state of Montana was turned down last year for a $37 million grant by the Federal Government to implement these standards which only last month they claim not to have yet articulated, nor did they have any idea of the cost. Not only does any of this not add up but it makes no sense that if the money is in the coffers then why was a request made to borrow it from big daddy, when at the same time there is no explanation as to where this figure is even coming from.

All the while an option is being given to the publicly funded school districts to partner with child care centers to design programs that work for them at no cost to parents, with money sloshing around in an ever ready fund. This leaves the door open to a variety of questions. How many children are in privately run pre-schools? How long will they be able to stay private? If this is voluntary how long will it take before parents, children and private pre-schools are obliged to conform? Does partnership mean take our money and do as we say or we will compete and put you out of business?

At the onset those who accept the offer which says that they can design their own programs, will be given the rules and guidelines of what that means, so that’s a ruse. The standards will cover learning categories such as emotional/social, cognitive, communication and motor skills. The expectation is that students (pre-school little children) will be expected to learn “to develop an awareness and appreciation of self as a unique, competent, and capable individual.”  Since when is this not natural to a child?

I am relieved that common sense prevailed in a recent interim committee meeting where the majority of legislators were opposed to these proposed rules.  The proposal was justified by a bureaucrat as “seeking to maintain the integrity of the local economy”, whatever that means.

For now a resolution opposing these proposed rules put forth by Sen. Matt Rosendale passed.  However, there is a meeting of the Board of Education currently scheduled for November 3rd where the intention is to approve these new pre-K rules. Bureaucrats are not only not being truthful with the public about what is really going on, but they are also discouraging public input. Until this next meeting let us all wonder what in the world is so urgent that the state must take control of our innocent children.

I recommend that you visit the site of the Office of Public Instruction http://opi.mt.gov/ and see for yourself what is publicly funded bureaucracy is up to and how they are spending your money.

This is the link to the Montana Board of Education with agenda schedule and contact info http://bpe.mt.gov/default.mcpx

Working Together for the Common Good

21 Aug

Team Work

Working Together for the  Common Good

Recently we attended a two day meeting of the Montana Board of Education in Helena. In the audience on the first day we were the only two people who were not government employees. It was a startling reality.

At the meeting on the first day they were discussing the by-laws. They skipped over the part about their constitutional oath of office, but did talk at length about the new department they have established for the deaf and blind with its own superintendent, which is a random growth of bureaucracy by bureaucracy. This is not an isolated example of their self- empowerment and complete disrespect of the legislative process.

They went on to discuss public comment which they feel to be an imposition on their valuable time. There were many suggestions about what to do about it, including a suggestion from their attorney, who also represents other government agencies which most likely could be considered a conflict of interest. His idea was to allow the Chairman to decide who speaks and for how long. In each of the solutions to what they see as a problem, we didn’t hear anything that didn’t sound like censorship of the public. They closed the meeting without asking for public comment, which seemed the most efficient and direct route to censorship. There is little regard for who butters their bread.

The following day the Governor arrived to give a rallying speech about his support for their efforts to implement “new standards” for education (read Common Core) with a focus on preschoolers of 4 years of age. The new terminology now is P through 12 instead of K through 12. He promised the Board that he would be lobbying the legislature to secure whatever funds they need to further “their agenda”.  He even waved his fist in the air, declaring that this is what he wants for his own children. Using words with reference to preschoolers such as “human capital”, “return on investment”, “social issues”, and their eventual ability to contribute more tax dollars; this governor is exposing himself as someone who has no respect for children or their future.

After the Governor spoke there were presentations by people from the various government agencies who spoke of their participation in implementing the “new standards”. They spoke of how they are endlessly working, and congratulating themselves on their input and output, none of it seeing the light of day where the public is concerned. When asked what these new standards and the structure around them will cost, the answer is that no cost analysis has been done. They will implement and then whatever money they need will be provided by a generous legislature.  They have already put up a training web site and are implementing a program that they say is not yet funded or approved. It is enough to go to the OPI web site to see what is being implemented for which the governor has promised funding.

At the lunch hour the Board announced a working lunch. As we were leaving to purchase our own lunch, we saw them at a table under a tree with buckets of food. It is too bad that this Board appointed by the Governors office can’t share with the public, as we would have been happy to join them.

In an article in the Daily Interlake (http://eeditions.shoom.com/doc/daily-inter-lake/10aug14dil/2014081001/#26) penned by  Mr. Bullock, his bio described him as a Helena Democrat, which is somewhat suggestive. He continues to establish himself as a lobbyist although that is not part of his job description. He has declared to want something for his children (pre-school standards) that they by age do not qualify for. When he talks about reducing the absenteeism of working parents, what he means is that they are to be replaced by the state in the “nurturing and educating” of their own children. No longer considered absent from their children’s lives because they are working to contribute more taxes to keep the state alive and well in the lives of their children, the state has rendered them obsolete as parents but necessary as economic support to the grand scheme.

We have to wonder if this Helena Democrat looks at his own children of roughly 7, 9 and 11, as human capital. We have to wonder if he sees them as investment opportunities. We have to wonder if he sees them as a resource for increased tax revenues. We have to wonder if he calculates the return on investment with regard to the cost of educating of his own children and what they will be giving back in the form of net gain to society, as opposed to the enrichment of their own life. We have to wonder if he considers how much money the state will get back for every dollar spent to turn them into “skilled workers” (read tax paying robots). To think that he is seeing children at the age of 4 years in these terms is chilling.

The Governor speaks of children who never have the opportunity to fulfill their potential, yet if his plan is that they fulfill his standardization of them, it is sure that they will never fulfill their own potential, but only his wish for their potential tax dollars. Do we have a charlatan sitting in our state’s highest office?

The truth is that the nanny state is replacing the parent and the family in the nourishing and education of our children, deliberately stifling the beauty and creativity of their minds to grow and learn, while at the same time saying that it is in the best interests of the common good. Plans are put forth but with no criteria.

There have been many who have warned of this intent to undermine the individual, and with it the family and the foundation of a free and productive society utilizing the education system. Our thought to parents is that they keep in mind that no one will ever love their children as they do, least of all the state.

We’re not a fleet of homogenous robots that function best when somebody programs us…free people are not equal and equal people are not free.” – Lawrence Reed, President -Foundation for Economic Education

 

Co-Authored by Mary J McCracken and Lucinda Hardy

 

 

Another Medusa

23 Mar

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The Raft of the Medusa (1818-1819) – Theodore Gerigault

This massive painting, The Raft of the Medusa by Theodore Gerigault*, measures about 6’x23′. It was completed when the artist was 27.  Standing in front of it is awesome. It reminds me of another Medusa.

The painting depicts the tragic aftermath of the French Frigate Medusa which ran aground off the coast of Senegal in 1816. The wealthy on board used life boats, while another 149 were forced onto a makeshift raft that was tied to one of the life boats until it was cut loose; they were literally cast off for being a burden. It shows the desperate attempt to signal another ship, the Argus, which did not respond. After two weeks there were only 15 survivors. It was a huge scandal in it’s day. The tragedy was attributed to  an incompetent captain and corrupt governance.

This  is a painting that has stayed with me since I saw it at the Grand Palace in Paris many years ago. The desperate energy, the integrity of the human form, human life abandoned to its own fate, impending doom and desperate hope.

So why do I bring it up? I went to a presentation about our new mandated healthcare and all I could think of was a shipwreck and the desperate victims that would lay in it’s wake. The Raft of the Medusa came to mind….MedUSA, otherwise known as Obamacare.

Notice in the painting the person depicted at the very top is a man of color who is waving a red flag (with his left hand). He is the most hopeful of the lot that there will be a rescue at least for himself.  He doesn’t even appear to notice or be part of the suffering around him.

Just as in Gerigault’s time, we have an incident of huge public interest, brought about by corrupt governance, poor leadership, disregard for fellow citizens, and if all goes according to plan the casting off of thousands, if not millions. The art of healing becomes a travesty as the coercion of death through government sanctioned assisted suicide and denial of treatment is being painted into our landscape.

Just as in the painting a father desperately clings to his son, whose fate has been determined, so does this plan determine the fate of our healthy young who have been set up to pay for a failed scheme, unless we  can alter the course of our own modern day Medusa.

Our life raft has been cut lose by those who consider the majority a burden. There are a few loop holes they have left in place until they who have created this disaster are no longer on the horizon, and thus no longer accountable. Just as the Argus paid no attention to the plea of rescue, and those with life boats cut the cord, so those who govern are ignoring the pleas of the governed, as they have the safety of exclusion from this scheme.

It is my hope that this healthcare mandate will meet the fate of yet another Medusa, who in her mortality betrayed her own honor and became ugly,  and in her ugliness was shunned, abhorred and cast out to wander aimlessly until her own demise.

*Theodore Gerigault rented a studio across from a hospital so that he could study the human body in an effort to depict with integrity his subject. He died at the age of 32.

L’Etat, C’est Moi

25 Jan

L'etat, c'est moi

I am the state

Recently I made a trip to Helena, the capitol of Montana, to sit in on a meeting with the Montana Board of Medical Examiners. They have been dealing with their Position #20 where they opined that assisted suicide is legal in Montana. Since when? That position got them sued. Getting sued caused them to make their opinion disappear.

During the 2013 legislative session there was a bill proposing legalization of assisted suicide and it was tabled in committee.  To say that it is legal in Montana is not only a misrepresentation, but criminal in it’s outcome.

To watch this group back out of their actions, which were beyond their scope, was an enlightening experience. They gave many reasons for their intrusion regarding this matter, all the while claiming they believed they were doing the right thing. It made me wonder if at times they purposely spoke with such low voices so as not to be part of the transcript. They were discussing their own ethics so maybe that had something to do with it.

They decided that instead of issuing opinion statements that they will just start making rules. What if they don’t have the authority to do so? They will just get the governor to give it to them.

I witnessed the approval or not of those requesting a medical license to work in Montana. There was one who just couldn’t keep his facts straight, who said he was reprimanded by one of the hospitals where he worked for taking a sandwich he was not entitled to, and although at the time that he got his medical license the  requirement to pass the exam was no more than three tries, he claimed that he did meet the requirement by passing it on the fourth try which in his mind qualified him to put MD after his name.

So what did this group conclude? That crimes against sandwiches are not important, that perhaps people with accents don’t understand English and therefore mix up their facts, and that since the rules for passing the exam have since changed to six tries that he would not be in violation if he was taking his exam now instead of then. Wouldn’t that be like moving the goal posts? They pondered seriously among themselves and then decided that he hadn’t done enough misdeeds to disqualify him from practicing medicine in Montana. He was thrilled at having found a place to hang his shingle.

They gave a review of their finances which of course are dire due to the fact that they spent more money than they had. Part of that due to the fact that they decided to remodel their offices and make them bigger. The director now has a big office in the executive suite which he thought well worth going in the hole for. They plan to go hat in hand to the legislature for more funds which they are sure to receive.

After proving themselves to be highly competent as a government agency, it was brought up by the director that they will be celebrating 50 years of existence this year. He felt it only appropriate that they should be honored with a big celebration and went on to share his idea for an appropriate bash. They were all in agreement. One of the board members did bring up the fact that they are not allowed to use “their” money on booze or food for the public.  Apparently they are only allowed (government rules) to feed themselves.  Even the queen of France before being beheaded thought that it appropriate that the public be given cake to eat  since they had no bread. In reality she was not diminishing the public, but simply sharing something that she believed to be in abundance.

It is sad when government commentary is that which has no regard for it’s citizens and their well being, and thus begets commentary on what those who “rule” have become. They take our bread but haven’t the decency of the late beheaded queen to offer cake.

L’etat, c’est moi……

The Ghost of Christmas Past

23 Dec

The last time that I was “home” for Christmas was about 36 years ago. After moving away, getting back there in winter or from a distance was just never practical, so I didn’t do it. Making the journey this time was not my idea and I have to admit that I had to give it some serious thought. My brother called to tell me that our mother had tripped and as a result her arm bone pushed into her shoulder, cracking the socket or something like that. In any case she was laid up in a sling.  My sweet brother sees time passing and most likely running out. I felt I owed him one.

My brother lives about an hour away from where I grew up. This is a road that I had traveled many times years ago. Now I barely remembered the way. I looked for landmarks and either didn’t see them or they weren’t where I remembered them to be.

As we approached our parent’s house where we grew up, the first thing that I noticed was that everything seemed smaller and more claustrophobic. When we were growing up, there were fields all around and now there are houses; too many houses. Dad was the last hold out and even he sold part of the property and now looks out on a commercial building with parking space. I was told that the buyer had agreed to build a camouflage or something but it didn’t happen; doesn’t look like it’s going to either. It was difficult not to feel like you were bumping into something just looking out a window. Or that the view was through a zoom lens. All of the open space and sense of freedom that I remembered as a child was gone and I felt suffocated.

The swimming pool in the back that at one time was surrounded by grass now has a chain link fence around it and is populated by dwarfs and animals and do-dads that my mother finds tasteful; imprisoned and oblivious. I could remember learning how to dive there when no one worried if anyone was going to drown. Back then it was just a swimming pool with a diving board and grass around it. Now, it too seemed smaller, incarcerated and apologetic; a victim of nanny state regulations.

We were met at the door by my youngest sister who is short and now has gotten a bit chubby, who wears lipstick that is too red, making her seem a bit like a Kewpie doll. She has always displayed an exuberance that is more than what any given situation calls for. This was no exception and long story short, she hasn’t changed much; always the antidote for any situation.

I gave a little hug to my mother and my father who didn’t pretend to think anything of my surprise arrival. My mother spoke a few banalities and my dad not much more than hello, continuing on with whatever discussion he was already engaged in.

After a bit my mother asked my brother in a rather accusing way, why he didn’t tell them about his new girlfriend. At least she knew better than to think I was his mother. He told her that he didn’t have a girlfriend. Indicating towards me with her thumb as if she was hitching a ride she asked, “Then who is that?” To which he replied, “your daughter”.  She asked, “What do you mean?” In her mind all of her children were accounted for…no strays.

She turned and asked me directly who I was in a defensive tone that one would use on an intruder, and I told her that all indication is that I am one of her children. She asked what I was doing there as though my absence from family photos cancelled my existence. She is getting up there and losing vision so anything out of the norm is to be questioned.

I confirmed that indeed I am the daughter that they haven’t seen in a while. My hair is now white but other than that I haven’t changed. Perhaps they had left me in a time warp that they were comfortable with. From that moment on no one knew quite what to do or say. I kept myself busy with some wine and snacks that my sister happily provided in an effort to keep reality at bay.

I noticed that on the wall was a photo of the last time the whole family was together. It was over 20 years ago. Next to it there was another photo taken a couple of years ago at our parents’ 60th anniversary party. I wasn’t there. However there was a small photo of me, just a head shot, perfectly trimmed that had been put onto the top left corner, tucked in the frame. I was looking to my right and so were they. I had, in this way, been given a distant presence.

The inside of the house seemed smaller and full of stuff. There were more Christmas decorations than I remember; more angels, nutcracker soldiers, wise men, Santa Clauses, golden geese and the nativity that used to be populated with miniature statues in a wooden “shed” filled with straw that was built by dad, has been replaced with dwarf size beige statues, no shed, baby molded to the manger, all praying under a modern street light.

The angel on top of the tree now has her own electrical cord that lights her candle and flaps her wings. They apologized for not noticing before they got her to the top of the tree, that her batteries needed to be changed, so her multicolored lights were not flashing, leaving something to look forward to next year.

The main worry now is getting the tree back out of the house. Mom’s in a sling and dad has a bad hip. He broke it 10 years ago when he fell off the tractor, although he didn’t know it until recently when it started hurting, so sometimes he uses a cane. He is not sure how to deal with the tree but I’m sure he will come up with something as he has always been resourceful.

The fireplaces that at one time had fires burning in them were dark and cold, the Christmas music that played in the background was silent. The table once set for many was now set for a few. The abundance of food was now just a simple meal.

Dad, now somewhere in his mid 80’s, spoke as he always has about his war days. I realized that it is a story that needs to be told. It has been suggested that I set myself to writing it. His is a voice like many others that has been affected by the human condition and man’s inhumanity to man. He still cries at the thought of his best friend being blown to bits for a reason that he can’t quite put his finger on.

After a few stories our mother said “When he’s gone, I won’t have to listen to them any more”, as if she saw some sort of relief in her future.  No one reacted as she has always had a way with words, only now gets to the point with fewer of them. He is probably lucky that he has replaced her as the cook.

After a while my brother decided to take me to our sister’s house. Not too much has changed there. I noticed the same dwarf size nativity. They must have gotten a twofer. My brother told my sister ahead of time that I was in tow, not that she would have acted surprised in any case.

She has a house that is always neat and clean no matter how many people are there or what they do. In my house if I’m alone and doing nothing I make a mess. If I have company I have a bigger mess. It is impossible to live life and not make a mess, or at least not leave something out of place. However, my sister defies this notion and I have no idea how. You get the feeling that there is some kind of subliminal warning that says “don’t make a mess or else”. Everyone seems to get it.

One of her kids is 6’7’ or there about and everyone has been justifying for years where he came from. He defies the family in size and scope. In any case he is the one who out of natural curiosity or something had the courage to approach me and talk. He is in finance and when I asked him questions about the financial world and how long he thinks it can defy gravity, he kept referring to what he learned in school. He is about 26 and nothing is out of kilter in his view. Everything he needs to know he learned at school in Chicago. His degree has made him an expert, experience is irrelevant. There were times when some logic got to him, which resulted in a blank stare and mumbling until we were able to move on. He was actually the most enlightening person I ran into there. My brother-in-law offered up some very nice wine. He has a special talent for acquiring good wine  at no cost which tends to make him more generous.

We went back to our parent’s house after a while for dinner of prime rib and baked potatoes. It was a far cry from the Christmas dinners we grew up with. There was nothing to distinguish it from any other meal except for the centerpiece on the table.

We drove back to my brother’s house in the dark, so my mind had a rest. We stopped along the way to view a light display that was timed with the music on the radio. You simply tuned the radio in your car to the proper station and the whole place blinked in time to the music. We are no longer in awe of what man is able to create and produce, we are in awe of the entertainment he can provide. It is everywhere, competing with itself. Entertainment is everything. A Chinese friend of mine told me once that the less people have the more they like to be entertained.

Speaking of which, there is a home near my brother’s place that has lights of every kind and color; lighted candy canes and snowflakes, lights strung on bushes and eaves, trims on doorways and windows, and a bunch of stuff filling the yard. In the middle of it all is a blown up, bigger than life Santa, sitting in a chair, turning back and forth and waving. He must have worn himself out because by the time we got home from our Christmas day, he had completely deflated. I felt sorry and suggested to my brother that we pick him up. For good luck he kept driving. By the end of the following day Santa was re-inflated and waving, and we both agreed that it seemed that there were more lights and Christmas trinkets around him than we had seen the day before. It was concluded that whoever had put this display up, had taken advantage of the day after sales and made a further investment in the time of good cheer.

Times have certainly changed since I was young. There are seven children in our family and none of us wanted to give up Santa so he came every year no matter how old we were. The last time I was thrilled by the surprise visit was when I was about 22 years old. We needed nothing more than a Christmas tree, a nativity, homemade treats and carols. Now Santa is everywhere, wood cut on the mantle, twinkling in the front yard, flying across the roof and all too often deflated without ever having done anything.

Gone are the days of the live nativity in the front yard, our mother finding yet another way to make her herd of children useful, and making our dad responsible for the sheep and cows she rounded up for her display and the traffic jam she created.  Now there are Santa’s and reindeer and lights and stuff…everywhere, not always with rhyme and reason. Just stuff….no purpose.

We returned the following day by way of the back roads so my brother could show me the vineyards that now replace the wheat and pea fields that used to fill the landscape. He showed me a village built by a rancher for his seasonal crew that included an adobe mission style church, similar to what the Franciscan missionaries built when they came to tame the Wild West. Ours really is a culture of theater and pacification.

We drove through small towns where we used to go for ball games, the park on the Snake River where we used to go boating and passed by many things that I had forgotten.

We stopped to sample some wine and mentioned to the owner that our great grandfather was the first to plant grapes there in the late 1800’s. That was before it became fashionable to be a vintner. He most likely planted them because he was homesick for Italy and the culture that he knew. They froze in 1955. Anyway, that was a long time ago and this wine maker couldn’t relate to such an historical event. He was from California and his is a commercial enterprise, as if the wheel had just been invented.

After driving all over the place and seeing houses, wineries, shopping malls and box stores where there was nothing but open space before, we stopped at last at our parents’ house. My nephew and his soon to be bride were there. I had noticed the evening before that her entire back is tattooed. When I asked my brother where these kids get the money for the extravagance of defacing their own body, he told me that small tattoos’ only cost $100. Money lost its value way before we noticed. Subsidizing parents adopted “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” way before the government did. No one batted an eye. After some small talk it was time to go.

As we were saying our good byes my mother told me in her own nonchalant way that although they understood that it had to be difficult for me to be there, it was worse for them having me. We all took her comments in stride as if they were terms of endearment, which to her they might have been. My dad, as was his habit, did not react to her remarks and just went about his business as he followed us out the door.  As we were driving out, I asked my brother what dad was doing and he replied “it’s Monday, he’s taking the trash to the front”.  Cane in one hand, garbage can in the other he was heading towards the street as he followed us out. As the daylight was dimming, there was melancholy in the air.

As we were leaving, we were observing a routine take back its now usual place, the good cheer of the holiday forgotten as if it were some sort of imposed time out. You could almost feel the cover of a book gently being closed.

It has been a while since we celebrated a baby’s birth and having been good all year. We used to say Merry Christmas and now not to be offensive it is simply the emptiness of Happy Holidays. It was sad to recognize the passing of time and the lost comfort of tradition and the simple things that gave us joy.

For the many changes I witnessed, there are some things that will remain as they have always been, ever oblivious to the passing of time.

Dum differtur, vita trancurrit – Seneca

Live Nativity resized

My siblings and I in our front yard every evening the week before Christmas with the sheep Pete and Gladys 
Set Display by Dad, Costumes and PR by Mom’s Real Life Theater

The Art of Preserving

27 Sep

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The Art of Preserving

It is hard to believe that our fabulous summer is officially over and we are now in autumn.  As we close out our season of boating, hiking and enjoying nice weather, there is an abundance of ripened fruit and vegetables that are ready so it’s time get back in the kitchen and prepare the pantry.

While growing up on the farm there was always a fury this time of year to can, freeze and preserve. I remember seeing the pantry shelves go from almost empty to full with canned fruits, vegetables, pickles, sauces and jams.

While I was living in Italy, putting up food was a way of life so it was easy to find home-made products of every kind; as a result I didn’t challenge myself.

I have to admit that I never canned anything, other than some strawberry jam which I happen to like, until I came to Montana. Then with the ripening of fruit on the trees around me I decided it was time I learned. That was a couple of years ago and I have enjoyed the fruits of my labor ever since.

This week a friend of mine arrived with a few pounds of plums and apples, which I combined to make chutney. I also made some plum jam with a hint of lemon and lavender from my garden. I blanched and froze some apples for creating a delicious last minute desert when the time comes. I even treated myself to some gnocchi (Italian dumplings) stuffed with plums which after boiling are covered in bread crumbs sautéed with butter and sprinkled with sugar and cinnamon. These were a throwback to the days of the Austro-Hungarian Empire and always a special treat this time of year in the place that I used to call home.

The busy lives that we impose on ourselves today are not conducive to setting aside time for preserving. It takes time to clean and prepare the fruits and vegetables, and they don’t wait until you are ready. Then there are the jars and lids and water baths. Somewhere mid-way through the process you ask yourself, “what was I thinking?”. However, when it’s done and the last jar pops as it seals and each one is put away, there is a satisfaction; a sense of accomplishment which extends itself as each jar is taken off the self and consumed.

Most importantly I know what went into each container, and what didn’t. There is no high fructose corn syrup, no soy of any kind, no chemicals with names I can’t pronounce. As it becomes more and more difficult to find really wholesome products, the pleasure of  one’s own production goes beyond personal satisfaction.

I feel fortunate to be in a place where there is still a pride in nurturing the soil, the plants and the animals, and being content to provide for ones own needs. There is a beauty in sharing and exchanging and along with that a distinct wisdom about how to live.

“Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored every step of the way.” – unknown

Guest Post: The Case for Good Taste in Children’s Books

31 Aug

I am posting this guest piece as I feel it is very relevant. We lose sight of the impact and importance of influences on the developing minds of our children. The most important thing we can give to them is their self esteem. Children are to be cherished and nourished in their development. Take a look at your local library and see where they are putting their resources in the teenage category. I was told it is because “it is what kids want”. Is there a reason that we are so banal about bad taste?- MaryinMontana

Meghan Cox Gurdon

July/August 2013

Meghan Cox Gurdon
Children’s Book Reviewer
Wall Street Journal

The Case for Good Taste in Children’s Books

MEGHAN COX GURDON has been the children’s book reviewer for the Wall Street Journal since 2005. Her work has also appeared in numerous other publications, including the Washington Post, the Washington Examiner, the San Francisco ChronicleNational Review, and the Weekly Standard. In the 1990s, she worked as an overseas correspondent in Hong Kong, Tokyo, and London, and traveled and reported from Cambodia, Somalia, China, Israel, South Korea, and Northern Ireland. She graduated magna cum laude from Bowdoin College in 1986 and lives near Washington, D.C., with her husband and their five children.
The following is adapted from a speech delivered at Hillsdale College on March 12, 2013, sponsored by the College’s Dow Journalism Program.

ON JUNE 4, 2011, the number one trending topic on Twitter was the Anthony Weiner scandal. I happen to remember that, because the number two topic on Twitter that day—almost as frenzied, though a lot less humorous—had to do with an outrageous, intolerable attack on Young Adult literature . . . by me. Entitled “Darkness Too Visible,”** my article discussed the increasingly dark current that runs through books classified as YA, for Young Adult—books aimed at readers between 12 and 18 years of age—a subset that has, in the four decades since Young Adult became a distinct category in fiction, become increasingly lurid, grotesque, profane, sexual, and ugly.

Books show us the world, and in that sense, too many books for adolescents act like funhouse mirrors, reflecting hideously distorted portrayals of life. Those of us who have grown up understand that the teen years can be fraught and turbulent—and for some kids, very unhappy—but at the same time we know that in the arc of human life, these years are brief. Today, too many novels for teenagers are long on the turbulence and short on a sense of perspective. Nor does it help that the narrative style that dominates Young Adult books is the first person present tense—
“I, I, I,” and “now, now, now.” Writers use this device to create a feeling of urgency, to show solidarity with the reader and to make the reader feel that he or she is occupying the persona of the narrator. The trouble is that the first person present tense also erects a kind of verbal prison, keeping young readers in the turmoil of the moment just as their hormones tend to do. This narrative style reinforces the blinkers teenagers often seem to be wearing, rather than drawing them out and into the open.

Bringing Judgment

The late critic Hilton Kramer was seated once at a dinner next to film director Woody Allen. Allen asked him if he felt embarrassed when he met people socially whom he’d savaged in print. “No,” Kramer said, “they’re the ones who made the bad art. I just described it.” As the story goes, Allen fell gloomily silent, having once made a film that had received the Kramer treatment.

I don’t presume to have a nose as sensitive as Hilton Kramer’s—but I do know that criticism is pointless if it’s only boosterism. To evaluate anything, including children’s books, is to engage the faculty of judgment, which requires that great bugbear of the politically correct, “discrimination.” Thus, in responding to my article, YA book writers Judy Blume and Libba Bray charged that I was giving comfort to book-banners, andPublisher’s Weekly warned of a “danger” that my arguments “encourage a culture of fear around YA literature.” But I do not, in fact, wish to ban any books or frighten any authors. What I do wish is that people in the book business would exercise better taste; that adult authors would not simply validate every spasm of the teen experience; and that our culture was not marching toward ever-greater explicitness in depictions of sex and violence.

Books for children and teenagers are written, packaged, and sold by adults. It follows from this that the emotional depictions they contain come to young people with a kind of adult imprimatur. As a school librarian in Idaho wrote to her colleagues in my defense: “You are naïve if you think young people can read a dark and violent book that sits on the library shelves and not believe that that behavior must be condoned by the adults in their school lives.”

What kind of books are we talking about? Let me give you three examples—but with a warning that some of what you’re about to hear is not appropriate for younger listeners.

A teenaged boy is kidnapped, drugged, and nearly raped by a male captor. After escaping, he comes across a pair of weird glasses that transport him to a world of almost impossible cruelty. Moments later, he finds himself facing a wall of horrors, “covered with impaled heads and other dripping, black-rot body parts: hands, hearts, feet, ears, penises. Where the f— was this?”

That’s from Andrew Smith’s 2010 Young Adult novel, The Marbury Lens.

A girl struggles with self-hatred and self-injury. She cuts herself with razors secretly, but her secret gets out when she’s the victim of a sadistic sexual prank. Kids at school jeer at her, calling her “cutterslut.” In response, “she had sliced her arms to ribbons, but the badness remained, staining her insides like cancer. She had gouged her belly until it was a mess of meat and blood, but she still couldn’t breathe.”

That’s from Jackie Morse Kessler’s 2011 Young Adult novel, Rage.

I won’t read you the most offensive excerpts from my third example, which consist of explicit and obscene descriptions by a 17-year-old female narrator of sexual petting, of oral sex, and of rushing to a bathroom to defecate following a breakup. Yet School Library Journal praised Daria Snadowsky’s 2008 Young Adult novel, Anatomy of a Boyfriend, for dealing “in modern terms with the real issues of discovering sex for the first time.” And Random House, its publisher, gushed about the narrator’s “heartbreakingly honest voice” as she recounts the “exquisite ups and dramatic downs of teenage love and heartbreak.”

The book industry, broadly speaking, says: Kids have a right to read whatever they want. And if you follow the argument through it becomes: Adults should not discriminate between good and bad books or stand as gatekeepers, deciding what young people should read. In other words, the faculty of judgment and taste that we apply in every other area of life involving children should somehow vaporize when it comes in contact with the printed word.

I appeared on National Public Radio to discuss these issues with the Young Adult book author Lauren Myracle, who has been hailed as a person “on the front lines in the fight for freedom of expression”—as if any controversy over whether a book is appropriate for children turns on the question of the author’s freedom to express herself. Myracle made clear that she doesn’t believe there should be any line between adult literature and literature for young people. In saying this, she was echoing the view that prevails in many progressive, secular circles—that young people should encounter material that jolts them out of their comfort zone; that the world is a tough place; and that there’s no point shielding children from reality. I took the less progressive, less secular view that parents should take a more interventionist approach, steering their children away from books about sex and horror and degradation, and towards books that make aesthetic and moral claims.

Now, although it may seem that our culture is split between Left and Right on the question of permissiveness regarding children’s reading material, in fact there is not so much division on the core issue as might appear. Secular progressives, despite their reaction to my article, have their own list of books they think young people shouldn’t read—for instance, books they claim are tinged with racism or jingoism or that depict traditional gender roles. Regarding the latter, you would not believe the extent to which children’s picture books today go out of the way to show father in an apron and mother tinkering with machinery. It’s pretty funny. But my larger point here is that the self-proclaimed anti-book-banners on the Left agree that books influence children and prefer some books to others.

Indeed, in the early years of the Cold War, many left-wing creative people in America gravitated toward children’s literature. Philip Nel, a professor at Kansas State University, has written that Red-hunters, “seeing children’s books as a field dominated by women . . . deemed it less important and so did not watch it closely.” Among the authors I am referring to are Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss) and Ruth Krauss, author of the 1952 classic A Hole is to Dig, illustrated by a young Maurice Sendak. Krauss was quite open in her belief that children’s literature was an excellent means of putting left-wing ideas into young minds. Or so she hoped.

When I was a little girl I read The Cat in the Hat, and I took from it an understanding of the sanctity of private property—it outraged me when the Cat and Thing One and Thing Two rampaged through the children’s house while their mother was away. Dr. Seuss was probably not intending to inculcate capitalist ideas—quite the contrary. But it happened in my case, and the point is instructive.

Taste and Beauty

A recent study conducted at Virginia Tech found that college women who read “chick lit”—light novels that deal with the angst of being a modern woman—reported feeling more insecure about themselves and their bodies after reading novels in which the heroines feel insecure about themselves and their bodies. Similarly, federal researchers were puzzled for years by a seeming paradox when it came to educating children about the dangers of drugs and tobacco. There seemed to be a correlation between anti-drug and anti-tobacco programs in elementary and middle schools and subsequent drug and tobacco use at those schools. It turned out that at the same time children were learning that drugs and tobacco were bad, they were taking in the meta-message that adults expected them to use drugs and tobacco.

This is why good taste matters so much when it comes to books for children and young adults. Books tell children what to expect, what life is, what culture is, how we are expected to behave—what the spectrum is. Books don’t just cater to tastes. They form tastes. They create norms—and as the examples above show, the norms young people take away are not necessarily the norms adults intend. This is why I am skeptical of the social utility of so-called “problem novels”—books that have a troubled main character, such as a girl with a father who started raping her when she was a toddler and anonymously provides her with knives when she is a teenager hoping that she will cut herself to death. (This scenario is from Cheryl Rainfield’s 2010 Young Adult novel, Scars, which School Library Journal hailed as “one heck of a good book.”) The argument in favor of such books is that they validate the real and terrible experiences of teenagers who have been abused, addicted, or raped—among other things. The problem is that the very act of detailing these pathologies, not just in one book but in many, normalizes them. And teenagers are all about identifying norms and adhering to them.

In journalist Emily Bazelon’s recent book about bullying, she describes how schools are using a method called “social norming” to discourage drinking and driving. “The idea,” she writes, “is that students often overestimate how much other kids drink and drive, and when they find out that it’s less prevalent than they think—outlier behavior rather than the norm—they’re less likely to do it themselves.” The same goes for bullying: “When kids understand that cruelty isn’t the norm,” Bazelon says, “they’re less likely to be cruel themselves.”

Now isn’t that interesting?

Ok, you say, but books for kids have always been dark. What about Hansel and Gretel? What about the scene in Beowulf where the monster sneaks into the Danish camp and starts eating people?

Beowulf is admittedly gruesome in parts—and fairy tales are often scary. Yet we approach them at a kind of arm’s length, almost as allegory. In the case of Beowulf, furthermore, children reading it—or having it read to them—are absorbing the rhythms of one of mankind’s great heroic epics, one that explicitly reminds us that our talents come from God and that we act under God’s eye and guidance. Even with the gore, Beowulf won’t make a child callous. It will help to civilize him.

English philosopher Roger Scruton has written at length about what he calls the modern “flight from beauty,” which he sees in every aspect of our contemporary culture. “It is not merely,” he writes, “that artists, directors, musicians and others connected with the arts”—here we might include authors of Young Adult literature—“are in a flight from beauty . . . . There is a desire to spoil beauty . . . . For beauty makes a claim on us; it is a call to renounce our narcisissm and look with reverence on the world.”

We can go to the Palazzo Borghese in Rome and stand before Caravaggio’s painting of David with the head of Goliath, and though we are looking at horror we are not seeing ugliness. The light that plays across David’s face and chest, and that slants across Goliath’s half-open eyes and mouth, transforms the scene into something beautiful. The problem with the darker offerings in Young Adult literature is that they lack this transforming and uplifting quality. They take difficult subjects and wallow in them in a gluttonous way; they show an orgiastic lack of restraint that is the mark of bad taste.

Young Adult book author Sherman Alexie wrote a rebuttal to my article entitled, “Why the Best Kids Books are Written in Blood.” In it, he asks how I could honestly believe that a sexually explicit Young Adult novel might traumatize a teenaged mother. “Does she believe that a YA novel about murder and rape will somehow shock a teenager whose life has been damaged by murder and rape? Does she believe a dystopian novel will frighten a kid who already lives in hell?”

Well of course I don’t. But I also don’t believe that the vast majority of 12-to-18-year-olds are living in hell. And as for those who are, does it really serve them to give them more torment and sulphur in the stories they read?

The body of children’s literature is a little like the Library of Babel in the Jorge Luis Borges story—shelf after shelf of books, many almost gibberish, but a rare few filled with wisdom and beauty and answers to important questions. These are the books that have lasted because generation after generation has seen in them something transcendent, and has passed them on. Maria Tatar, who teaches children’s literature at Harvard, describes books like The Chronicles of NarniaThe Wind in the Willows,The Jungle Books, and Pinocchio as “setting minds into motion, renewing senses, and almost rewiring brains.”

Or as William Wordsworth wrote: “What we have loved/others will love, and we will teach them how.”

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The good news is that just like the lousy books of the past, the lousy books of the present will blow away like chaff. The bad news is that they will leave their mark. As in so many aspects of culture, the damage they do can’t easily be measured. It is more a thing to be felt—a coarseness, an emptiness, a sorrow.

“Beauty is vanishing from our world because we live as if it does not matter.” That’s Roger Scruton again. But he doesn’t want us to despair. He also writes:

It is one mark of rational beings that they do not live only—or even at all—in the present. They have the freedom to despise the world that surrounds them and live another way. The art, literature, and music of our civilization remind them of this, and also point to the path that lies always before them: the path out of desecration towards the sacred and the sacrificial.

Let me close with Saint Paul the Apostle in Philippians 4:8:

Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

And let us think about these words when we go shopping for books for our children.

*Reprinted by permission from Imprimis, a publication of Hillsdale College.

**Article Link:   http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052702303657404576357622592697038.html

Bambi’s in a Blaze

26 Aug

forest fire

They say that it is the time of year and to be expected. Our big sky has gone from bright blue to hazy brown as fires rage in the forests that are all around us. Bambi’s in a blaze.

When 19 hotshot firefighters were burned to death in Arizona someone was casually quoted as saying, “sometimes fire wins”. No kidding.

We are told about a raging fire in Idaho that is heading towards expensive homes, “a monster with it’s mouth open. So we should consider the ill intent of the fire, as if fire is of human will and  malice. What would Prometheus think after having been exiled for giving fire to the people assuming  in good faith that he was enabling progress and civilization.

In California there is a fire “stomping it’s way” to Yosemite, already having laid waste to 200 square miles with no sign of letting up. Again this raging fire is referred to in human terms as if the Terminator is on the loose. Evacuation and destruction is reported with nonchalance as if humans are not to blame and destruction a banal activity.

In the Lolo forest in Montana there are evacuations and the Bob Marshall Wilderness is again on fire….an annual event.

When I hear about 5,000 homes being threatened by a raging fire that is cutting an apocalyptic swath it begs multiple questions. The attitude being that the home owners were stupid enough to build wooden houses in a place that has trees. What is not considered is that in the name of environmentalism (a word that has been usurped by obstructionists), that while government agencies pass out, for a fee, permission to build they haven’t the decency to maintain a healthy forest to protect the citizens that they rely on to feed their trough as they lay claim to the land “to protect it”.  There is an obvious twisted logic that goes unnoticed by those who are convinced that everything government does is in their best interests.

There is an excuse that we must “protect” nature by letting it degrade to such a state that it is literally destroyed along with everything around it. This concept is a blatant disrespect for nature, human life, wealth and, ownership to say nothing of being completely irresponsible.

Of course there was a time when there were forests with no population any where near them. They burned when lightening struck, or they just became combustible enough to catch fire. They burned, no one was hurt and there was no hurry for them to regrow. That was before people settled in as civilizations evolved. Part of this evolution was learning to live as one with Mother Nature and her testy moments. Being responsible and maintaining a balance is what real environmentalism is about.

Have you ever heard of a raging fire in Germany? There are forests everywhere, but the difference is that they are healthy. Germans take care of their forests because they understand it is better for them and for the wildlife that lives there.  It is a matter of respect as well as education. Like putting your hand on a hot stove; in theory it should take only one time to learn.

Instead we go through the seasons of raging fires every year and they are getting worse as the abandoned forests are becoming more flammable with the dying trees, deep accumulation of underbrush and infestations. These fires are creating their own unpredictable weather patterns. They  burn so hot that deep into the soil life dies, not to mention the trapped animals that call these places home.  They are protected at their own peril.

It was reported a couple of days ago that the fires in Oregon, Idaho and Montana are running a tab of over $1 billion. That is a lot of hooch to go up in smoke. Just think of what an entrepreneur with some common sense and where with all could do with that kind of money. I would bet that he/she could put some people to work and produce something that would benefit mankind. Instead we are in the hands of bureaucrats that think nothing of wasting resources most likely for the simple reason that they are unaccountable. This is nothing but irresponsible mismanagement and blatant waste.

We are made to believe that bad science blames cows that pass gas and people who drive cars a detriment to our otherwise healthy environment, yet there is a strange silence as the air fills with smoke while thousands of acres burn.

I would suggest looking at a a burned out forest as it struggles years later to come back and ask yourself did it deserve the kind of protection that it received in the hands of those government entities who laid claim to it. Did the animals who couldn’t get away deserve a blazing captivity and ultimate roasting? Do the people who lose their homes get their taxes back from a government that didn’t bother to protect them and their environment? Did Prometheus suffer in vain for his foolhardy notion?

One Of Life’s Big Fixers

18 Aug

weed whacker

This evening I went out to water my flowers and across the street was my neighbor’s son who was frustrated trying to start the weed whacker.

His parents moved from South Carolina to Montana when he was a baby so that they could raise him in a “healthy environment”. They purposely have a business which allows them to work different shifts so that one of them could be home all the time. They didn’t want their son raised by strangers. He is a nice kid and will talk your leg off if you have time.

I asked him if everything was okay and he told me that the weed whacker only started when his parents were home. I told him that it is because he doesn’t like to use the machine therefore he will never get it to start. He admitted that the he preferred the lawn mower.

I noticed that he was aggressively pulling the string. I told him that by his method it would be difficult to start, that instead he needed to feel it and then gently pull it to a response. At that point he said “you try it” and I was on the hook. He also told me that the weed whacker is old,  as old as he is, 14 years. I responded that people my age remember when things ran for older than I am and that they still work. Those were the days.

The weed whacker smelled like gas so it may have been a little flooded but I gently pulled the string and I felt that it had three “glitches”, which I pointed out to him. I told him that he needed to get it to the third glitch before it would start. He told me that amazingly he heard them once I pointed it out. I gently pulled the string and it started. It wasn’t an assaulting noise, just sort of a purr. He was amazed.

As he went about his work the machine stopped and he looked over at me. I waited as he first hesitated and then pulled the string. It started back up. He had a grin from ear to ear.

After he finished mowing and weed whacking he came over and knocked on my door. He has the gift of gab and although he is too big now for his race car he told me stories of his experiences on the track. Racing was something that he and his dad did together. They built the car and from his father’s knee so to speak he learned not only how to drive but to have integrity. He always followed the rules of the game even when others chose to break them. For him there is only one way to win and sometimes he did.

As he was explaining to me all the various aspects of racing he said that the hardest challenge was driving on a steep curve. That is when the track curves up like the side of a bowl. He said that it didn’t bother him even though others were astonished that he could do it without hesitation. I asked him how he was able to meet this challenge and not be intimidated with losing control of the car and spinning out. His response was that you just feel it and you know when your car is going to go and then you back off. I realized that without knowing it he had done with his racing what I had taught him to do with his weed whacker.

I’m sure that the only reason why I could get that machine started was not  my knowledge of machines and how they work, but asking my grandmother how she made all her food come out so good without using a recipe and her response was “you just feel it”. Truly one of life’s big fixers.